it's 19th oct 2009 today. i had been away from 1 yr and 8 mths. life hasn't been that great in my opinion, and it's mostly due to schooling. i think there's no way i can emphasize enough on the fact that schooling is a really tedious affair which i don't look forward to everyday. perhaps my only motivation now will be to meet up with my beloved girls every saturday. you girls really bright up my day, which is especially significant for this particular week. i dont think i can ever express how much i really love you ppl, no matter what has happened. just wanna say i'll continue loving you girls!! love you bitches!!

she told the story ... 12:53 AM

it's been so long since i last blogged. work has been crazy. i feel so worn out lately. no doubt i made several good friends there, but inevitably, problems start to surface. and guess what's the worst part of it?? somehow, i feel that im the guilty one. i really feel so fucked up and this feeling stings. damn, i hv to think of a way to go and face those implicated ones tmr.

note to self: think twice before saying anything. im no longer in a surrounding as naive as it was when i was younger. i've just stepped my foot into the working society; the complicated world.

she told the story ... 10:59 PM

it's already 2007 and my work schedule rocks to the core. my mum's nagging at me again ( or did she ever stop). i'm working 6 days a wk, turning into a lifeless working machine. all these just for a living. damn!! life sucks.

she told the story ... 3:01 AM

i'm finally working!! i'm finally not a freeloader and can support myself!! muahaha!! kk im crazy too. anyways, work sucks BIG time and i feel like a fucking idiot there. it sucks to be new and inexperienced and noob and an idiot. i started having the habit of talking to myself too. damn guess im losing my sanity. darn.. hope i can survive long enough to at least receive my first pay.

she told the story ... 2:19 AM

it's been so long since i last blogged. ya i know this blog has been stagnant for quite a while. anyways, A level is long over and im not gonna talk abt it anymore so dont come asking how was it alright?? it's disastrous in my opinion.

i've been slacking for a month; waking up late every afternoon, sleeping late every night, wanting to go out with my friends, to go on shopping sprees but lacking $$, thinking that i should start finding a job to earn some cash but always can't get rid of that slack life i had led. that pretty much sums up my life this month.

oh ya, i went for my class chalet too, like on the 27th to the 30th nov, tonning at leo's hse on the 26th to watch a match( man utd vs chelsea). did i mention how cute and manly cristiano ronaldo is?? ya he totally rules!!

went for a lunchboxers outing too. we went cycling then shopping and pigging out!!

i just got a job and should be starting work next week. that's what the manager said but it's like sunday now and next week is from tmr onwards, but right now i heard no further notices. wow!

she told the story ... 3:22 AM

it's been a long time since i last blogged. my blog has been stagnant for quite a while. 10 more days and it's the start of A level, and im not even prepared. damn me for being so slack. have to work extra hard now if i wanna get into a uni. it sucks.

i really cant help but feel like shit. guess it's the stress. i feel so depressed and gets irritated easily by any slightest thing. it feels so suffocating and difficult to breathe. i'd always felt left-out but this feeling had become so overwhelming lately that i dont know how to handle. everyone ard me seems to hv one closest pal but who do i hv?? i dont know. i just feel like im alone. i feel like talkin to somebody abt what im feelin inside but i dont know what to say, and who to talk to. i just dont know how to tell them my inner feelings. what happened in the end is most probably me keepin it to myself with nobody truly understand what i feel or think. it stinks.

i just miss jo alot. i really do. but i know that chances of her to be back in singapore, to stay with me, is slim. i miss her so badly that i just cant stop my tears from flowing whenever i thought of her. what else can i do other than to cry to myself? i have no idea at all. just hope that this feeling will go away soon.

she told the story ... 5:00 AM

lately, i am studyin very hard. after slacking for a long time, i finally have the urgency. every weekend, i will study out with a bunch of good pals. hope it's not too late thou. and since i'm working so hard, i had not come online for a long time. i guess i will not blog for a long period of time too.. dont miss me.. i'll be back soon, i hope. wish me luck in my studies.. cya!!

she told the story ... 9:23 PM

wanjing
a student

food
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more cash
school being shut down